5/22/2012

I had my hair colored brown today and now I feel weird when I look into the mirror but I like it. It's something new and I have been thinking about it for a very long time and I finally got to do it so I like it. Yeah… even if it's weird.

5/16/2012

Had a great dinner at Astons with the girls tonight. Spent time coming clean with everything that happened in between and I know.. no matter what I say, it wouldn't change the fact that I erred but I was sure that no matter what I do, they would be okay with it in the end and that they would embrace me despite the many flaws I possess. That even though we may not be the best for each other all the time, we would still have each other forever.

Anyway, it's my mom's birthday today and I texted her something really sweet at like 12 sharp earlier on hoping to get a reply but I receive none. Yeah. How rude my mom is. I try to understand though, because there's a chance she might not understand what I was trying to say in the text and also because I'm very possibly the only daughter in the world who would get her own mom a hair clip worth only $3.90. Not that I despise that amount of money but I figured anyone would think $3.90 is too little an amount for a decent birthday gift considering the fact that it is not even enough for a complete meal at Mcdonalds. However, I do have my reasons for doing so but I also believe that there is none that can be counted acceptable hence I decided maybe I should just stop here and go back to eating the leftover rice and soup my sister bought for her dinner today.

Goodnight all.

5/15/2012

Everyone's being such an angel to me. Remind me why did I leave in the first place again?

5/07/2012

But I shouldn't let it matter to me whether they like me or not because so what if they don't?

5/05/2012




It may not be perfect but what is perfect?

5/04/2012

 Can't get to sleep.

I spent the past 1 and a half hour painting my nails boring. Actually not exactly because I spent a quarter of that time painting my nails and the rest of it just fixing my One nail because I ruin it like 5 times. Argh……

This month I decided it's time to get over it. Like putting everything behind and cast it all out of my life because I've decided enough is enough. I'm still trying to figure out a way to get it done though. I really don't want to put anyone including myself in a nasty sticky situation and it's hard to come up with the best plan but then again, maybe there is no best plan, just Goodbye I Won't See You Again So Please Get Out of My Life. Yeah… just that.

I fly to the Land of Smiles in 27 days. I can't wait to leave because I'm positive that when I come back after, everything would be fine again and on top of that I can't wait to come back a different person.